envious shadows

1-How are you? fantastic until i look in the mirro but other than that very happy

2-Post a picture of yourself. nahh

3-Do you ever wish you were someone else? all the time

4-What is your entire name?Erica Tyler

5-How old are you? 18

6-Age you get mistaken for: 16 give or take ( im very short)

7-Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality: virgo

8-What did you do on your last birthday? went to a A7X concert!

9-What is one thing you would like to accomplish before your next birthday? meet all my goals

10-What is your hair color? dark brown with red tint

11-Have you ever dyed your hair? yes highlights

12-What is your eye color? greenish blue

13-If you could change your eye color, would you? yes, blue

14-Do you wear contacts/glasses? nope

15-Your opinion about your body and how confortable you are with it: it needs work and thats a no

16-Have you ever considered plastic surgery? What would you alter about your body? everything

17-Say 8 facts about your body: chunky, plushy, pale, pokeable, bulky, big boned i could go on… but im tired thats theres only negatives

18-Do you have any tattoos? not yet

19-Do you have any piercings? yep

20-Left or right handed? right

21-What’s your sexual orientation? straight

22-Do you drink? not yet

23-Do you smoke? nope and never shall

24-Do you have any pets? yes

25-Where do you work? papa johns

26-Something you are working on right now: other than this quiz, then i shall work on homework

27-Do you have any “rules” about food? yeah i dont eat any meat other than seafood and chicken, and  i try to enforce the entire dont eat after 7 but doesnt always work and if i eat pizza it has to have veggies on the pizza if there is more i dont eat it and i dont eat the crust on any type of food

28-Where are you from? maryland, USA

29-What would you say is your best quality? kindness

30-What do you think you’re really good at? perhaps drawing maybe

31-What do you think you’re really bad at? having balance

32-What talent do you wish you’d been born with? singing

33-Are you a bad person? i try not to be

34-Are you nice to everyone? again i try

35-Say 3 facts about your personality: kind, caring, shy

36-Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? yes

37-What is your ideal bed? Why? queen size temperpedic, because i want more room and its superrrr soft

38-Did you wake up cranky? no

39-Do you sleep with a stuffed toy? no, a pillow

40-What do you think about the most?  my boyfriend, school work and my weight

41-Share 2 habits: fidgeting and worrying too much

42-What you want to be when you “get older”? illistrator

43-What are your career goals? just said

44-What is your ideal career? just said

45-Is your life anything like it was two years ago? in some ways sadly and happily no

46-Do you replay things that have happened in your head? all the time

47-Have you ever had an imaginary friend? lol no

48-Say 10 facts about your room: tiny, cluttered, calming, ran out of words

49-Do you have any phobias? ummm probably

50-Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? nope

51-Are you allergic to anything? If so, what? penicilin

52-Ever broken any bones? nope

53-Ever come close to death? when i was a baby

54-Things you like and dislike about yourself: dislike: everything like: hair and calves

55-A random fact about yourself: im weird

56-What are three things most people don’t know about you? i have eating issues, i cut and ive thought about suicide

57-An unknown fact about your life:  umm idk

58-Share something about yourself others might think is weird: uhh i like shiny things?

59-Five weird things that you like: umm twilight, books, thats all i can think of

60-Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this? no one send me this

61-Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?duh

62-Describe yourself in one word/sentence: unbeautiful

63-A quote you try to live by: no pain, no gain

64-Leave me a compliment: your a great person?

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~~~~~~~~~~Favorites

65-What is your favorite thing to do? listen to music

66-What’s your favorite color? black

67-What’s your favorite band/singer? Avenged Sevenfold

68-What’s your favorite movie? Sherlock Homes

69-What are your favorite books? sadly twilight

70-What is your favorite quote and why? no pain, no gain because it encourages me

71-What is your favorite word? freaking

72-What is your least favorite word? maybe

73-What is your favorite type of food? sushi

74-You favorite ice cream? chocolate cake batter

75-What’s your favorite animal? horses and huskies

76-Dogs or cats? dog!

77-Describe your favourite texture: velvet

78-What is your favorite flower? orchids

79-What’s your favourite scent? And on the opposite sex? umm idk for the opposite sex but i like sweet smelling things or floral

80-What is your favorite season? summer!

81-What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die? hawii, london, paris, bahamas and rome

82-What are four things you can’t live without and why? ipod, car, bed, my dog, 1. it has music and i can contact ppl, 2. obviously i need it to get to my fav ppl, 3. i like sleeping comfortably  4. i would miss my dog too much,

83-Which mythological creature are you most like? Why? probably sadly a fairy but i would b a badass one

84-What’s your favorite television show? big bang theory! or LA Ink

85-Favorite place to shop at? walmart

86-Say 2 facts about your favorite things: ……

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~~~~~~~~~~Family, childhood and places

87-Say 4 facts about your parents: caring, fair, slightly strict, loving usually

88-Are you more like your mom or your dad? mom

89-Do you have any siblings? yes

90-Say 9 facts about your family:…..

91-What’s your relationship like with your family? close to every except my dad

92-Say 7 facts about your childhood: sheltered….

93-The best and the worst childhood memories: going to the beach would be the best, cant remember my worst

94-Say 6 facts about your home town: quiet, noneventful…

95-Are you going out of town soon? yep in a month about

96-Where would you like to live? somewhere very hot

97-What would your dream house be like? a sharp and elegant house but with a cottage feel to it, in a middle of a slight clearing deep in a forest but able to see the stars and has glass walls in some sections of the house

98-Where would you go on your dream vacation? hawii

99-Where you want to be right now? with my boyfriend

100-Top three places to visit: baltimore, washington dc, flordia

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~~~~~~~~~~Friends

101-Would you ever smile at a stranger? i guess

102-Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? boys

103-Who is someone you never tire of? my boyfriend, and my non related big brother david

104-Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? almost yes

105-Who is your most loyal friend? matt (boyfriend)

106-Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? no

107-If your best friend died, what would you do? idk if i really have one

108-A reason you’ve lied to a friend: bcuz it was too uncomfortable and to save time and hastle i lied

109-Have you ever felt replaced? lots of times

110-Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s): dont have one

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~~~~~~~~~~Relationships

111-The last person you hugged? my brothers girlfriend kathy

112-Who was your first kiss with? current boyfriend matt

113-Do you like kissing in public? not very much

114-Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yes matt

115-You have a preference for boys or girls? yes. dark hair, good build, styled hair, clinching jaw

116-Is the male or female body closest to perfection? ????

117-Do you believe in love at first sight? yes

118-Do you believe in soul mates? yes

119-What is your idea of the perfect date? going somewhere remote watching the sunset or staring at the stars or maybe him lighting candels and we dance close together

120-Based on past relationships or crushes, describe your perfect boyfriend/girlfriend: the one im currently dating, hes funny and most of the time easy to be around and get along with, he can be romantic and times but doesnt open up very often

121-What is the first thing you noticed in someone? their hair

122-Are looks important in a relationship? somewhat you have to be attracted to them

123-What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? generousity and manners

124-What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? its just a number

125-Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? no

126-Five guys/girls whom you find attractive: Matt :) orlando bloom, keira knightly, Zac Efron, , kristen stewart

127-Do you have a crush on anyone? duh

128-A description of the girl/boy you like: perfect

129-Say 1 fact about the person your like: i just said it

130-If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? i understand i wouldnt choose me either

131-When was the last time you told someone you loved them? uhh 2 hrs ago

132-Do you think someone has feelings for you? they said they do

133-Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? hopefully

134-Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? yes

135-Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? yep

136-Anyone you’re giving up on? yes

137-Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? haha yeah

138-Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? yep

139-Have you ever liked one of your best friends? mhm

140-Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? sadly no but its not surprising

141-Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? very much so

142-Is there someone you will never forget? yes

143-Say five ways to win your heart: kindness, traits of being a gentleman, romanance, doing small deeds, holding my hand

144-What turns you on? lol its not tumblr appropraite

145-What turns you off? fouls smells

146-What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? lol again it shouldnt b said

147-What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? idk

148-What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? tell me im beautiful

149-Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Have you had one written for you? yes

150-What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? uhh made a cd i guess

151-Are you in love? too early to tell

152-Are you in a relationship? yes

153-If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? everything

154-Are relationships ever worth it? well they say its better to love and losted to never have loved at all

155-Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? yes

156-Can you commit to one person? 100% yes

157-Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? 110% yes

158-Do you ever want to get married? eventually

159-Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? i doubt it

160-Future names of your children: elisa ann

161-Do you get jealous easily? depends on the situation

162-The last time you felt jealous, and why? saw a girl that i wished i looked like at college

163-What is your definition of cheating? receiveing affection from another and not doing anything about or even encouraging it

164-Have you ever been cheated on? i dont believe so

165-Do you forgive betrayal? depends

166-Have you ever cheated on someone? never

167-Why did your last relationship fail? hasnt failed

168-Things you want to say to an ex: dont have one

169-A description of the person you dislike the most: there is not one

170-If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? those two shouldnt go together

171-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? just ther current one i have

172-How long was your longest relationship? look up top

173-You’ll love me if… you will come with me

174-Share a relationship story: nah

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~~~~~~~~~~Music, movies and books

175-How often do you listen to music? addictively

176-What kind of music you like? everything except country and rap

177-Do you like to dance? sometimes not very often

178-What was the first concert/show you attended? thousand foot krutch

179-Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? yep

180-Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past: dont remember the title

181-A song that’s been stuck in your head: just a kiss

182-Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play: nah

183-A book you want to read/have recently read: the next book from the series i am number four

184-Describe your dream library: filled with action and romance books

185-Last movie you just watched: the dark knight

186-Do you like watching what type of movies? hard core, racing or chick flicks

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~~~~~~~~~~Situations and crazy things

187-You’re in a tattoo parlor about to get inked. What are you getting done?  a bass clef upside down and a treble g right side up together to form a heart

189-What’s something you can see yourself going to jail for? speeding too much

190-If you could be any character, from any literary work, who would you choose to be? bella from twilight, yeah sad aint it

191-You’re given $10,000…under one condition: you cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to? my mom or my non related big brother

192-If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? idk

193-If you were an element on the Periodic Table, which would you be and why? carbon dioxide, its posionious

194-If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2 years ago of one that was very agressive for myself and emotional

195-You’re an Action Movie Hero. What’s your weapon of choice and the line you scream when defeating your arch enemy? shot gun, die!!!

196-If you could design an amusement park ride, what would it be like? fast as possible

197-What is the first curse word that comes to mind? fuck

198-What the last party you went to was… and when the next will be… lol i cant remember been too long

199-Halloween costume idea? perhaps a french maid

200-What are you supposed to be doing right now? homework

201-Currently wanting to see anyone? yes

202-Why you follow me? who are u?

203-If you met me what would you do? say hi

204-Leave me a ridiculous question: what color are ur underwear?

205-Leave me a cute message: ur soo pwetty :D

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~~~~~~~~~~Opinions and beliefs

206-Is the cup half full or half empty for you right now? hald empty

207-Do you believe in fate/destiny? yes

208-What you wish for on 11:11? that i wish he was here with me

209-Do you consider yourself lucky? What’s your good luck charm? yes and dont have one

210-Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets? no

211-What is your religion, if any? christian

212-Would you go against your moral code for money? hell no

213-What’s more important to you: strength of the body or strength of the mind? the mind but i dont have it

214-How important you think education is? very

215-If you were the president, what would you do? cut my ties off the countries who want to bomb us

216-If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change? voilence

217-Is it the thought that counts? Or is that phrase circumstantial? thought that counts

218-If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do? go to the beach with the ppl i care for

219-Which movie character do you most identify with and why? idk

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~~~~~~~~Feelings and Others

220-Are you a procrastinator or do you get things done early? early!

221-Post a photo/draw a picture/write a poem (pick one) of a moment of personal significance: nah

222-Say 5 things you love unconditionally: my dog, ppl in my life, music, art, the sun

223-What motivates you in life? the future

224-Something that you’re proud of: my hair and art skills

225-Five words/phrases that make you laugh: that is what she said!!

226-Share the story of something that makes you smile: idk

227-Something you always think “what if…” about: what if he cares about me as much as i do him

228-What was something you used to enjoy, but was ruined for you? What’s the story behind that? idk

229-Describe one of the most awkward experiences of your life: when someone asked me if i was sucking in my gut in a pic bcuz apparently ppl cant look that skinny

230-Something/someone that you miss: bf and piano

231-Are you over your past? no

232-What is your saddest memory? friends leavin my life

233-One of the hardest moments in your life: when my uncle died

234-Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yes

235-What’s something you want to do that you’d be embarrassed to tell other people about? idk

236-What was your most embarrassing moment? too many of them to remember

237-Share one of your fears/insecurities: myself, storms and bees

238-Something you’re currently worrying about: my relationship and grades

239-Have you done something you regret very much? yes

240-If you could take something back that you said or did, what would it be? lol too much invovled of a story

241-Does anyone hate you? i hope not

242-Do you hate anyone? no but i do dislike one person

243-Are you good at hiding your feelings? no

244-What’s something you hide about your personality? my hatred of the way i look

245-How do you approach social situations? awkwardly

246-Are you a social or an antisocial person? inbetween

247-Are you an introvert or an extrovert? a wat?

248-Do you care if people talk badly about you? yes very much so

249-How do you deal with criticism? not very well

250-How you hope your future will be like? happy

251-What’s something that scares you about the future? if i still will be with the ppl i currently care about

252-Five intems you lust after: cars

253-One thing you’re excited for: summer

254-Describe the most terrifying/strangest/beautiful dream you’ve ever had: the first one i had of my bf

255-Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? haha yes

256-Who is your celebrity crush? channing tatnum

257-Make a confession: i used to weigh myself every morning

He’s gone and he never even was mine but I felt my heart give away it’s very last piece every mile i drove away from him and now it just feels like there’s a hollow space, I’m back to being alone and now I wish I could leave for good….

I simmer up coffee, boil green tea and pour up water. Cooking For Ana :)

Sometimes my long healed self induced scars ache like I just cut them and I feel the same release as when they first bled…

My mom asked if I am mad with her, she knows me so well she could tell I was upset, but she doesnt no why. I’m not mad at her in mad at myself for being so fucking weak and fat. Although I technically could have been mad at her for buying the food